Day 23 and Have Hit the First Wall
Aug. 18th, 2012 11:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hiddencaitWell I knew it was going to happen and today out of nowhere it seems to be doing so.
I am officially questioning what the fuck I thought I was doing taking on a second job.
I'm totally exhausted mentally and physically (which I know is part of my 3 day diet thing, but the rest is decidedly work), frustrated because I'm almost out of things to do AGAIN and my boss isn't here cuz hey it's the weekend and she and her husband wanted to go hang out which totally makes sense but just makes me frustrated and kinda bummed.
It doesn't help that it's an utterly gorgeous day, and want so bad to be out on my back porch writing and hanging with puppies and just having a weekend.
I did the math and I'm on my 23rd work day in a row.
And that number will only get higher if I want to succeed and pay off my dept.
I know it's worth it. I KNOW it is. And I know I can do it.
But I'm having a hell of a time remembering that right now.
So can yall just help remind me please? Feeling awfully close to quitting and that just is not acceptable. Period. End of story.
I am officially questioning what the fuck I thought I was doing taking on a second job.
I'm totally exhausted mentally and physically (which I know is part of my 3 day diet thing, but the rest is decidedly work), frustrated because I'm almost out of things to do AGAIN and my boss isn't here cuz hey it's the weekend and she and her husband wanted to go hang out which totally makes sense but just makes me frustrated and kinda bummed.
It doesn't help that it's an utterly gorgeous day, and want so bad to be out on my back porch writing and hanging with puppies and just having a weekend.
I did the math and I'm on my 23rd work day in a row.
And that number will only get higher if I want to succeed and pay off my dept.
I know it's worth it. I KNOW it is. And I know I can do it.
But I'm having a hell of a time remembering that right now.
So can yall just help remind me please? Feeling awfully close to quitting and that just is not acceptable. Period. End of story.
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Date: 2012-08-18 06:29 pm (UTC)As to the credit score, that may definitely be something I look at cuz I know the CC is directly affecting that. Granted my credit score was seriously awesome before I bought the house, but seeing it get better can never hurt.
And yeah, that definitely helps and thank you for reminding me of this. It's hard because I am pretty young to be doing this or am at least compared to my mom (the only other person I know right now in person who is taking a second job just for debt and not living expenses) and my friends who think I'm crazy. I just... I see the honestly shitty financial situation my mom is now in after the divorce because she's still got some of Dad's debt and almost no savings because he was always certain she didn't need to. And I really REALLY don't want to reach her age and be in anything like a similar situation, ya know?
But yeah, that was definitely a lot of what I needed to hear. It is definitely worth it.. just hard.
I know it's going to take me at least 2 months to really settle physically and mentally into this schedule, I just hadn't expected to get hit with the feeling of "there's no way I can do this" quite YET ya know?